Que sera sera

When I was small I had so many interests.. like singing, dancing, painting and stuff.. my mind was never set to any one thing... with no limitation to bound my imagination I painted my world.. I was content with my self.. until people started to question my destiny..."what will you be? a doctor, a nurse, a lawyer or a business women...... I never had a definite answer... I wanted to be a singer, a dancer....an artist... there were so many things... but I noticed that these were rarely on the list of.. 'My Ambition' essay given by the teachers......so while nurturing my interests.. (on my own) and pondering on my ambition...I promised my self ... I would be somebody....someday.. : )

but as time passed...I started to feel depressed and loose self confidence..... I felt like shutting my self out from this world....but there was no where to hide...my husbands high associates asked me... "what do you do?" right after " how do you do?" : ) I was feeling more ashamed and less important.... I wanted to start doing something....but didn't have a clue where to start from......I felt like I was a failure and... the only one in my family...who couldnt make them proud....

After waiting for so long... now.. at last ... I've got the chance(thanks to god).. to do something in the field of my interest...the feeling is so wonderful and at the same time scary.... its like a new life...: ) ...I crave to reach the top and prove my self that I can be someone after all.... someone my family (and everyone) can be proud of : )... and I would do my very best to achieve my goals : ) and by doing so... could hopefully return my gratitude to those loved ones who gave a meaning to my life : )

love you all (for believing in me)
sasha