TI DING!

here i am waiting with a 4 digit queue no. to be called upon after half an hour only to be announced that all my waiting was in vain... "come back again on 20th" said the immigration officer... and passed me out without a second glance.. and it wasn't his fault or mine that my visa got delayed...it was a women who filled the form with a whole lot of correction pen and said sorry.... afterwards...

sorry a simple 5 digit word which is delivered so easily without having to cramp your neck for half an hour or to tolerate the never ending sound of TI DING ... hehehe..

even the simplest things can sometimes be so straining and time consuming... i guess that's only a tiny part of life: )

(life) the first episode

Happiness burst out as tears
Draining out all your fears

Taking the vows as you wept
With promises that are never kept

Held by the magnetic glittering
Get chained to the ring of suffering

Your heart flips with joy and pride
At the announcement of 'you may kiss the bride'

You don't want anymore
You don't wish anymore

You've got all you wanted
A love that's pretended

Then comes the dinner and the wine
That's how it all starts so fine

But you've still got time
Apple juice, orange juice or lime

Cant you see it in their eyes?
The awful terrible lies

To love is to hurt
To guide is to mislead
To abandon and desert
To make your heart bleed


written by: Sasha
originally in 2003

Thoughtful thoughts

Life can be so simple and at the same time such a burden. Even the simplest matters can give you endless joys or sorrows..but everybody has a limit..a limit that if pushed... "nothing" matters anymore...the hurt makes you a so different person... what you think, say or do is simply based on your instinct.... which is mostly to return the feeling of hurt,pain or guilt.... this strong urge leaves scars.. thats difficult to mend....and heavy on heart we still live...why ...

Fade

Fade to grey
Take the light
Take the flight
And go away...

Shade today
Heat tonight
Have to fight
And die the same..

Made to pay
Pay for rights
Try survive
And cry for pain...

Fade to grey....

written by: sasha
(btw it's a song)

Subconscious mind

All my life I have tried to be a better person...someone everyone will love and care about but there are certain things that makes me who i am...

An ability or fault..like smiling and frowning, everyones special in their own way.well thats how I see it but then again..everyones different.. and would have different opinions...

Are we perfect? we can try to be... but would we be ourselves if we try to be something we are not..?

crazy thoughts

When i was small i thought id marry an angel, go to heaven and live happily ever after.I thought i was special and had a mission to accomplish,a prophecy to fulfill...a legacy which would come to view eventually.

My mind was pretty preoccupied by my own world where i flew high... with my own wonderful dreams. :) My world with rainbows and butterflies and all smiles.

My friends laughed at me and made fun of me.. and i laughed.. but.. at them...for i have seen and lived in the world that hey had not yet foreseen. I grew powerful day after day..blooming and shining my happiness on others.

Life was perfect ..as was the dreams..for my angel was there..behind the clouds...whom i longed to meet.He had the perfect smile and the heart of an angel i searched for him everywhere..but realized it would take time for him to find me..: )

So i waited...

As time grew older i was disrupted and disturbed by the harshness of the old world.cruelty,dishonesty,lies and more lies.. which distressed me so badly.I knew I couldn't stay in My world all the time but couldn't survive the old one sanely.

At last i found my love...my angel..though i wanted to be up in the stars with him ....reality caught up faster.. coz thats where he lived in.

I came to realize I had to make adjustment to my well perfect world to make him fit...so i did
and now I'm blissfully happy with him...

But life had taught me its harsh truth .. that there is no actual happily ever after...

I'm Back or so i think!

I've been away from life for some time...but now I'm back or so i think. Will the wind change and time slow down to the whispering made by sasha robot.

amen